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Labor Day Weekend Update
Sep. 5th, 2010 07:13 pm*I started this post this morning, but wasn't able to finish it until this evening. Ah, life.
Fannish:
Picked up Dexter S4 at Best Buy yesterday on blu-ray. It's one of the handful of shows the husband and I actually watch together, so after jam making, we mainlined the first disc last night ("date night" for us this weekend). How is this show seriously still so awesome four seasons in? Also, they so love to suck you in to the next episode by ending on shocking cliffhangers. It's a good strategy.
Writing:
This is me, officially asking my beta readers to poke me and pester me about getting on with the damn rewrite. Cause books don't write themselves, and I'm well over the surgery now. Maybe instead of being poked, I need to be beaten with a stick at this point. It's too easy to let me hobbies distract me, damn it.
Life:
Today is my niece's first birthday. We got her a rocking horse. :) We'll be leaving shortly to go eat cupcakes and watch her be cute.
*takes deep breath*
So, the husband and I have decided to explore adoption. It's been a really difficult decision to make. I have issues with adoption that spring from a bad childhood experience. My parents adopted a five year old little boy that had attachment disorder. No one knew what it was back then, and no one told my parents about the series of abusive foster homes he went through. It was a nightmare I don't even care to go into. I'll say this: I used to have nightmares about him killing my family in our sleep. Yes, that's how bad it got.
So, you should have some small idea of how hard it was for me to even come around to this. But I just don't think I can do the donor egg and in vitro thing. I don't think I can go through that emotional roller coaster, pay all that money, and then what if it doesn't work? I don't think I can take another crushing disappointment like that. Mark and I talked, and we both thought about it, and we've decided to look into adopting a baby. Yes, I know this could take a long time, and I know it's expensive. But it's either a baby, or nothing. I won't risk another situation like the one I grew up with.
So, yeah. That's kind of where stuff is at right now. Time to actually post this and think about making dinner.
Fannish:
Picked up Dexter S4 at Best Buy yesterday on blu-ray. It's one of the handful of shows the husband and I actually watch together, so after jam making, we mainlined the first disc last night ("date night" for us this weekend). How is this show seriously still so awesome four seasons in? Also, they so love to suck you in to the next episode by ending on shocking cliffhangers. It's a good strategy.
Writing:
This is me, officially asking my beta readers to poke me and pester me about getting on with the damn rewrite. Cause books don't write themselves, and I'm well over the surgery now. Maybe instead of being poked, I need to be beaten with a stick at this point. It's too easy to let me hobbies distract me, damn it.
Life:
Today is my niece's first birthday. We got her a rocking horse. :) We'll be leaving shortly to go eat cupcakes and watch her be cute.
*takes deep breath*
So, the husband and I have decided to explore adoption. It's been a really difficult decision to make. I have issues with adoption that spring from a bad childhood experience. My parents adopted a five year old little boy that had attachment disorder. No one knew what it was back then, and no one told my parents about the series of abusive foster homes he went through. It was a nightmare I don't even care to go into. I'll say this: I used to have nightmares about him killing my family in our sleep. Yes, that's how bad it got.
So, you should have some small idea of how hard it was for me to even come around to this. But I just don't think I can do the donor egg and in vitro thing. I don't think I can go through that emotional roller coaster, pay all that money, and then what if it doesn't work? I don't think I can take another crushing disappointment like that. Mark and I talked, and we both thought about it, and we've decided to look into adopting a baby. Yes, I know this could take a long time, and I know it's expensive. But it's either a baby, or nothing. I won't risk another situation like the one I grew up with.
So, yeah. That's kind of where stuff is at right now. Time to actually post this and think about making dinner.
