rhienelleth | It's Friday the 13th again??

I read my f-list today and actually caught up to the last post I'd seen yesterday. This used to be a daily occurrence for me, and now it feels like an accomplishment.

I am about tired of this listless, apathetic, ennui crap. Some could be blamed on the diet. But I'm sure some is just my emotional state, or whatever. Well, I'm tired of it. I've never had issues with depression until these last...almost two years. The current state of the economy doesn't help, nor the fact that most of my friends seem to have badness going on in their lives. But I am just TIRED of feeling down and listless and blah. My doctor is putting me on vitamin D supplements, as I am EXTREMELY vitamin D deficient (as are many residents of the overcast pacific northwest). she seems to think this will help. In the meantime, I am giving myself a swift kick in the ass.

You know what really helps? A sense of accomplishment. I haven't done much with jewelry or writing these past weeks, and in fannish and fun online activities, haven't even kept up with my f-list or posted much. But being back this past week, finishing up some sewing projects, those things have helped. I've felt...like I've had some purpose to my days. And that tells me that I need to keep making myself do things. So. I'm going to write. I'm going to open Nemesis, and get working on it. I'm going to post word count updates and snippets and actually feel like each day is an accomplishment. Starting today. *opens word doc*

I'll post a progress report in a few hours.

Hmm. I get coffee back, and suddenly I'm filled with a renewed sense of purpose. Coincidence? I wonder. Coffee = my miracle drink.

And no, I got no caffeine headaches at all by being off caffeine for a month. Not one, which considering my propensity for migraines, really surprised me.